Ditat Deus

This photo was taken in a yard in the middle of the desert.  The pavement ended at its gates;

the home was small and there were no fancy cars,  just flowers and cactus.

“Ditat Deus”

That’s Latin for Arizona’s State motto and it means “God Enriches.”

When I saw these flowers, I felt myself “considering the lilies of the field.” (Matthew 6:28)

I spend a lot of time in great effort trying to make life run smoothly, but the best and most beautiful things in my life

are here because Heavenly Father arrayed them thus.

Reduce, Reuse, Recycle

Yes, the following post is a little bit grumpy. Despite the flowers, I have to say spring is not my favorite thing. I roll with the seasons, and when the weather is wonky, I am wonky. I am fine, though, and planted wheat grass for Easter time and flowers today. I heard my oldest children play piano at the U of A this morning and that was nice.

Now, for the Angie-rant.

I had a dream of becoming one of those people who had cloth grocery bags but I could never bring myself to plunk down the money to do it. I decided the only way I was going to be ecologically responsible was to ask for Richard to buy them for me. (It’s how things work around here.)

We’ve been using the cloth bags for 3 months. They are so much nicer on your hands. They don’t cut into your flesh as you carry them around. They are stronger than plastic, and you don’t have to find a place to put all those plastic bags. The only downside is they affect the cashier-customer relationship.

I don’t interact with adults very often so when I go to the store, I expect a pleasant reception and maybe a little admiring comment about my little boy’s red hair. When I bring my cloth bags to the store, that’s all the cashier wants to talk about. Sometimes cashiers are noticeably bothered by the hassle. These cashiers alternately purse their lips, sigh audibly, and sometimes complain outright. One store gives me a 5 cent discount per bag. Here, the cashier says to me, “How many?” instead of “Hello, how are you?” I’ve had conversations about their pleasant pastel color, their depth (most cashiers say they are awkward), their strength (young bagging boys will load them so full I can hardly lift them), and oh, lots of other dull things.

Moving on to an equally dull topic, but one that affects my life, let’s talk about recycling.

We live in a town with 3 competing garbage companies. This is good for the prices, but in order to be competitive, our garbage company decided it needed to give us an additional recycling can… no charge! But wait! it’s 12 cubic feet of space that I no longer have in my yard. I crush boxes and milk cartons, I wash out cans and carefully monitor what’s recyclable and not. We went to a presentation about where our recycling items go. We learned that our recyclables aren’t recycled in town; they are SOLD to various recycling companies. That means I am working for the city!! I am sure my things are recycled after being transported by diesel engine across several states. However, I kind of resent the whole process and I’m not certain we come out any better off ecologically.

I’m not a fan of recycling, but I’ll do it. I guess I stand more firmly behind the idea of reusing and reducing. Here’s a photo of Daniel’s science fair project before we pulled off the papers so the board can be reused. I felt very Depression-era as I picked sticky things off two boards for 30 minutes. I didn’t do it for the paper. I did it for the money. That’s $10 I won’t have to spend next year.

And last, if you are still reading, I thank you for your time. I have a beautiful photo to share tomorrow.

A Great Matter settled

It’s settled. It doesn’t take much to make my little boys happy.

A Big Event came and now it is over. I oversaw many things: chemistry, cinema, costumes, photography, tents, model building, cooking, advertising and bunting. I went overboard. Again.

Sticks, pine cones and friends provided the most entertainment today. It’s a wholesome and encouraging truth to be remembered Next Time.

Under Construction

When a website is undergoing some kind of change, they say it’s “under construction.”

Something like that is happening here. I am a hesitant blogger (despite my frequent posts) because unlike many bloggers,  I am not here to start a discussion. I’m just here to share. I share to maintain relationships with family and have some personal validation. I have a very small readership. (Bless each of you!) I get a lot of questions about curriculum and activities, so I have tried to share these things here. This may be changing, however.

First, two bits of background information:

A few months ago I found a discussion that asked, “At what point do you stop posting about your children because they are old enough to tell their own stories?” This question has hovered over my head for a while and I can see wisdom in not treading heavily on the experiences of childhood. I have tried to be careful with what I post about the heart-wrenching or embarrassing moments of growing up. There are no posts showing the painful smile after braces or striking out during a baseball game, etc.

This weekend I read a homeschooling discussion and was once again shocked and horrified to read the hatred and mistrust that is directed against parents who educate their own children. Such comments ignore the good and highlight the bad. I have seen homeschooling done very well and I’ve seen it done very poorly. Over the past several days my reaction to the acerbic tone of so many against this movement has been to crawl into a shell and ponder two questions,

“Is the online telling of the education of my children ultimately unfair to them?” (even though I block search engines)

and,

“Do my homeschooling posts serve anyone but myself?”

Since I’m not looking for a discussion, I don’t expect these questions to be answered by my readers, but through prayer. And believe me, that’s enough.

But, if you see fewer posts in the future, or see that I suddenly start posting pictures of decorated corners of my house instead of scenes from the schoolroom you will know that I have decided to protect that aspect of our lives.

A gift, freely and meekly given

Last spring I decided to search out one of my favorite teachers, Mr. H.who taught me to play the violin for 6 years. I learned that he passed away in February of 2008. His online obituary listed his accomplishments. I was surprised at what I read because he had never really shared his credentials with us.

He did post-graduate work at Juilliard and obtained a master’s degree from Columbia University, though he never mentioned it.

He taught in the Bronxville Public School System for 25 years. I heard him casually refer to this.

He taught in my home town public schools for 11 years.

He played in the Utah Symphony.

The first time I met him, he was wearing plaid pants and going around to the 5th grade classrooms, playing something on the violin to entice children to join the elementary orchestra. The tune was lively and he tapped his big foot on the floor as he played. His thin white hair grew disheveled with his movements. I was enchanted. The next week I began my years of carrying a violin to and from school.

I have had several violin teachers and played in many orchestras, but Mr. H was the steady influence in my music training.

There were many adventures. There was the day when we took advantage of his good nature and asked if he would bring us some ice cream. He said he was out of cash and showed us his wallet. One spunky student grabbed the wallet and pulled out a check for something like $15,000 from the sale of one of his instruments. He chuckled and then set off to the ice cream shop where he bought each of us a large sundae.

My favorite year was in 9th grade when I was in an ensemble group that met at 7 am. I can still remember his expression once we mastered a piece. He was so happy.

The last time I met him was in 1994 when I went to his home to play a quartet with some old high school friends. He entertained us and gave advice. He told me that I needed to keep playing, even though I had decided not to major in music.

As is often the case when we lose someone we care about, I find that my mind now focuses differently on this man who spent 36 years teaching children to play stringed instruments. His story is the kind that could inspire a screenplay. He must have taught thousands of students. What a gift he shared.

I feel like I owe a few children in my a life a piece of that gift that was given to me so freely and meekly. Until I fulfill this obligation, I’ll treasure the gift and try to keep fiddling.

Monkey Muses

These monkeys make me smile.

It’s been that kind of week, people. Can it get any more crazy around here?

Reports, experiments, valentines, bike riding, park day, ballet, Cub Committe work, sign-up sheets, an advertising project, extra piano lessons, hiring a new art teacher, e-mails… and through the din I hear my voice in a muffled, tunnel-like echo saying,

“Let’s start working on The Iliad tomorrow!”

(As if Homer’s pathos, hubris,  and other epic themes have anything to add to the life we lead.)

But these Monkey Muses sing on in my head, “Keep reading! Keep writing! Keep creating! This is the time of your life!”

…And of course, they are perfectly correct.

Sing on, Monkey Muses in my head, sing on.

No, we didn’t buy mouse ears

… but we had a swell time.

We never got a picture all together, but we enjoyed one day with everyone well enough to be there.

Daniel, our most adventurous boy, went on everything. Twice.

Paige had a good time, too, and was so helpful.

Timothy had a rough start on a terrifying ride, but overcame his fears and loved the rides as long as they didn’t plunge too suddenly into a dark abyss.

This was our first trip to Disneyland. Now, maybe it’s because I am adult, but these were some observations I just couldn’t reconcile in my mind:

A grandmother on the Dumbo ride; all by herself,

Mouse ears on grown-ups,

Reservations to eat with the Princesses are required 18 months in advance????

Darth Vader and Disney,

Leaving a stroller full of our belongings and not really worrying about theft,

LOVING the It’s a Small World Ride and WANTING to see Princess Aurora.

Being sentimental, I teared up as soon as I saw all the kids on a ride together, but in my haste to hide the tears, I brushed sunblock into my eye and then I really had something to cry about. It was a day of contradictions. I was amused at the childhood played out by adults, but succumbed to it myself in the end. And even though I didn’t see Princess Aurora, Paige bought me an Aurora pin on the second day I stayed home with Mark. The poor boy had an ear infection in each ear.

Connection

Today I moved through e-mails and personal interactions in awe of the connections that have blessed my life since moving here. So many of those women who have been my companions and confidantes surrounded me today at a small party for our homeschool group.

One friend lost her mother to cancer last week and we talked on the playground with tears and some laughter, too. One friend paid me back for something and five minutes later I handed the money to another friend who lost her wallet today and needed to buy gas. We exchange ideas and inspiration and books. These generous women enrich my life and make my children happy with their kindness.

And last, but most tender, another friend struggles in the hospital today and we carefully pray for her. And for her family. And all those who love her.

I came home to two letters. One from each of my grandmothers. I feel embraced, understood, and comforted today through the lives and kindness of so many women.

Perseverance.

I remember 3 things from this movie: raw eggs, raw meat, and the above scene The mornings this week have been as painful as Rocky’s. Can’t. Get. Up. Mark. Couldn’t. Sleep. Again. Perseverance was the theme this week. There was no lofty goal but to get those hours of school accomplished. I stand atop my own 72 steps, knowing the children haven’t been neglected academically (or ahem, socially, my concerned critics). In celebration, I’ve been thinking the Rocky theme song because Friday was here and the end was in sight…

The end of talking about the Babylonian empire;

The end of talking about the Cuban Missile Crisis;

The end of Lessons 70 in Math 65 and Algebra I and subtraction without regrouping;

The end of high and low pressure systems, clouds, and wind currents; pollination and seed development;

The end of trying to stay ahead of voracious readers and preparing study questions;

The end of juggling the needs of a 3 year old with the needs of all the others.

The books are put away in the school room; the birthday presents are purchased; anything I do now will just put me in the black for next week’s schoolwork. I hope your weekend is as bright with possibilities as ours looks tonight.

No words…

…to describe my feelings about those affected by the earthquake in Haiti. I take comfort in seeing the images of rescuers from so many nations rushing to their aid. I choose to follow the stories that describe the Best in people.

I know prayer makes a difference, too.

We can all be rescuers if we keep our eyes open for the needs of those around us and extend our hearts in prayer and generous giving to those out of our sight. Our influence can span the miles with God’s help.