Christmas candy jars

IMG_20131125_121351I made these from a couple of items from the dollar store, epoxy, and spray paint. They’re a cheery addition to the mantel and they’re not high on the crafting skill index. Apothecary jars filled with candies are so pretty, but you need about 17 pounds of candy inside of them. These are easier to fill and they cost about $2.50 to make.

You’ll need candlesticks,

DSC_0590small jars of different heights,DSC_0589and some wooden knobs from the craft store to affix to the lids. Soak the jars in hot water to remove the labels and glue. Spray paint the candlesticks and knobs. Glue them together with epoxy or E6000. Easy.

These would be cute for Halloween with black bases and lids or pink and red for Valentines Day. I am still trying to figure out how to get the pickle smell out of the lids. They were going to be Christmas gifts, but I don’t want the candy to taste like asparagus or sweet peppers. For now I’m calling them decorations, and I don’t mind the funny flavor in my candy. Mark has noticed my weakness for candy and says that I must have more than one sweet tooth.

Little Women

Little WomenPaige and I watched this movie late into the night last weekend. I always watch this movie with my girl. The first time I watched it was in a theater with my mom and two sisters in December 1994, just a few days before I got engaged. That’s a sweet memory.

It was a weekend to celebrate women. My mom spoke at the Missionary Training Center to all of the sister missionaries on Sunday morning and she invited me and my sisters to attend.

We were told that 39% of the missionaries at the MTC this weekend are sisters. That’s a lot of women. There was real power in that enormous arena. There were other sisters assembled at the “west campus” and we waved via satellite. When they all sang I cried.

They took lots of notes and told me they were excited to go to Taiwan or Scottsdale, Arizona and all over the world. My mom’s words were beautiful and reminded us that The Gospel Blesses Families. It’s quite something to be invited to speak to such a unique and historic audience. It might have been the largest gathering of sister missionaries ever. It was a special thing to see my mother speak with confidence and power to that audience.

I went home to my Young Women at church and told them that they look like the sisters at the MTC. They are nearly the same age and they have the same countenance. Do they understand that they have power through their obedience to covenants? I hope so. Do they understand that they are respected and valuable in their roles at church? I hope so. Do they know that it’s a blessing to be a woman? Oh, because it is!

C.S. Lewis

I’ve spent a year reading the writings of C.S. Lewis not realizing that it was the 50th anniversary of his death on November 22. I have collected many quotes. There are fundamental differences in his theology and mine, but his insights into human nature are honest and enlightening. I like his words about God’s love and methods of perfecting his children.

Here are a few quotes that I have enjoyed in my study this year:

…on wasting time and energy on things of little worth:

“The Christians describe the Enemy as one ‘without whom Nothing is strong’. Nothing is very strong: Strong enough to steal away a man’s best years not in sweet sins but in a dreary flickering of the mind over it knows not what and knows not why, in the gratification of curiosities so feeble that the man is only half aware of them, in drumming of fingers and kicking of heels, in whistling tunes he does not like, or in the long, dim labyrinth of reveries that have not even lust or ambition to give them a relish, but which, once chance association has started them, the creature is too weak and fuddled to shake off.” –The Screwtape Letters

…on forgetting to count our blessings:

“We want a whole race perpetually in pursuit of the rainbow’s end, never honest, not kind, nor happy now but always using as mere fuel wherewith to heap the altar of the future every real gift which is offered them in the present.” –The Screwtape Letters

…on free will:

“The sin, both of men and angels, was rendered possible by the fact that God gave them free will: thus surrendering a portion of His omnipotence …because He saw that from a world of free creatures, even though they fell, He could work out… a deeper happiness and fuller splendour than any world of automata would admit. –Miracles

…on mourning and remembering a loved one:

“For, as I have discovered, passionate grief does not link us with the dead but cuts us off from them. This becomes clearer and clearer. It is just at those moments when I feel least sorrow… that H. rushes upon my mind in her full reality, her otherness. Not, as in my worst moments, all foreshortened and patheticized and solemnized by my miseries, but as she is in her own right.” –A Grief Observed

“I will turn to her as often as possible in gladness. I will even salute her with a laugh. The less I mourn her the nearer I seem to her.” –A Grief Observed

…on our unanswered questions:

“Can a mortal ask questions which God finds unanswerable? Quite easily, I should think. All nonsensical questions are unanswerable. How many hours are there in a mile? Is yellow square or round? Probably half the questions we ask–half our great theological and metaphysical problems– are like that.” –A Grief Observed

“Heaven will solve our problems, but not, I think, by showing us subtle reconciliations between all our apparently contradictory notions. The notions will all be knocked from under our feet. We shall see that there never was any problem.” –A Grief Observed

…on reading:

“The great thing is to be always reading, but not to get bored–treat it not like work, more as a vice! Your book bill ought to be your biggest extravagance.” -quoted in CS Lewis, A Biography by Roger Lancelyn Green and Walter Hooper

…on God’s love for us:

“The great thing to remember is that, though our feelings come and go, His love for us does not. It is not wearied by our sins, or our indifference; and, therefore, it is quite relentless in its determination that we should be cured of those sins, at whatever cost to us, at whatever cost to Him.” –Mere Christianity

…and a reminder on how to reflect God’s light:

“He [God] shows much more of Himself to some people than to others–not because he has favorites, but because it is impossible for Him to show Himself to a man whose whole mind and character are in the wrong condition. Just as sunlight, though it has no favorites, cannot be reflected in a dusty mirror as clearly as in a clean one.” –Mere Christianity

…and about the word “Christian”:

“if at once we allow people to start spiritualizing and refining, or as they might say ‘deepening’, the sense of the word Christian it too will speedily become a useless word. In the first place, Christians themselves will never be able to apply it to anyone. It is not for us to say who, in the deepest sense, is or is not close to the spirit of Christ. We do not see into men’s hearts. We cannot judge, and indeed are forbidden to judge. It would be wicked arrogance for us to say that man is, or is not, a Christian in this refined sense… as for unbelievers, they will no doubt cheerfully use the word in the refined sense. It will become in their mouths simply a term of praise. In calling anyone a Christian they will mean that they think him a good man. But that way of using the word will be no enrichment of the language, for we already have the word good. Meanwhile, the word Christian will have been spoiled for any real useful purpose it might have served.” –Mere Christianity

…and finally, why we should seek Christ:

“Look for yourself, and you will find in the long run only hatred, loneliness, despair, rage, ruin, and decay. But look for Christ and you will find Him, and with Him, everything else thrown in.” –Mere Christianity

We need a little…

1979 Christmas
Sanchez kids Christmas 1979

Will Thanksgiving ever arrive? I’m impatient to see Richard again. Perhaps if we put up the Christmas tree early this year, it will seem like his homecoming will be sooner.

I bought a new tree last weekend. I placed the big box in the living room for a few days and stirred up all kinds of anticipation. We’re big Thanksgiving enthusiasts, but we are breaking all of the rules and decorating for Christmas early. There might be pilgrims and nativities, and pumpkins and stockings adorning the shelves and mantels for a week. We’ll do whatever inspires a pull of family connection and memory.

An Evening of Excellence

IMG_20131120_233619The Young Women came together to display some of the goals that they have been working on this year. We served a nice dinner for them and their parents. The evening was full of sweet moments as the girls shared honest, real experiences and accomplishments.

I keep smiling as I recollect their words, their courage, and the things they chose to display. Striking themes were the lifeline of scripture study in their lives and the huge opposition they feel to gospel living. There were talents shared, such as piano pieces and crafts, and each girl was given the chance to speak. I felt happy when one of the young women stood up and talked about the experiences she and I have shared this year working on her project to make soft and cute hats for cancer patients. She keeps mentioning how much fun she had doing it. Hooray!

Paige was there and she displayed her concerto music and her scriptures. She has done so many incredible things this year, from ballet to piano, and academics to painting. I am proud of her for playing the organ at church. I am proud of her for working so hard in school. I am proud of her because she studies the scriptures carefully and keeps a journal of her thoughts. She sacrifices a lot to study; she is a great help to our family.

IMG_20131120_233359It was a beautiful evening to celebrate the lives of our Young Women.

Los Alamos

1995 Los Alamos-001Dear Richard,

We were darling in 1995 and living in Los Alamos, NM. When was the last time we reminisced about that lovely place and time?

The canyon views as we drove to work each morning were gorgeous. Remember meeting for lunch at the lake and reading that silly book Heaven Only Knows aloud? Remember how we would hike a new trail every weekend? The Red Dot trail was unforgettable for lots of reasons, and it was on the Pipeline Trail that we decided that we’d spend our wedding money to buy a computer… I think it had 75 megabytes of RAM and a 1 gigabyte hard drive?! We had a goal to play tennis on Wednesday nights and each evening after making dinner we’d sit down together and watch Coach. I tried to watch an episode of that a few years ago and I couldn’t remember why we liked that show so much.

One day we traveled to Santa Fe so you could take the GRE and I locked the keys in the car and we had to use a hanger to unlock the door. Gasoline cost $1.30 at the station all summer long. One of my favorite memories is the time we drove to Santa Fe to buy a piece of strawberry pie.

Remember when we played violin and piano duets at the Chamberlain’s house all evening while they were away? What about that camping trip in the thunderstorm when everything got drenched and we huddled together on the small island in the center of the tent  through the night?

My memories of that time feel like mountain air, mixed with a bit of sunlight from our window on Sunday afternoons after church and the swell of grandeur in those views of the Rio Grande and mountain trails.

Those were sweet days. I thought I loved you then, but that was just the beginning.

Love,

A

Some unexpected opportunities

IMG_20131106_181402I’m in my 40th year! I don’t care who knows it. Remember in Sunday School when you learned that when Joseph Smith wrote that he was in his fifteenth year, it really meant he was only 14? Let’s be clear: my 40th birthday is next year. I am 39.

Here are some things that happened in my 39th year… when I was 38… are you following me?

T his year I learned

H ow to make a quilt and

I learned that I could play the fiddle on stage while balancing on a block high in the air. I

R ead several books of religious philosophy. I

T aught the Mia Maids in Young Women, and didn’t get heat stroke at

Y outh Conference! My

N eighbors had quadruplets and they let me come help,

I wrote my grandmother’s history and

N ervously watched my children leave for school each morning. I spent many

E venings driving to piano, ballet, baseball, and youth activities.

I’m most happy about the violin performances and writing. I’m not sure what big projects I will do in the upcoming year.

Most of the things from last year that I am proud of were unexpected opportunities. I just went with my whims or said yes when someone asked me to do something. Is this how it works for you?

Why is it that only a few of my well-planned goals brought me the same joy as the unexpected opportunities? It’s certainly not because I love spontaneity. Perhaps it’s because God had bigger plans for me than I had for myself.

My buddy

IMG_20131117_190015Here is Mark in his new suit and fresh haircut. I couldn’t resist taking a picture of him. At church this week I let him skip Primary and come to class with me. In the hallway someone reminded me that it’s good for kids to face their troubles, which is a good insight… but not for us today. I have learned that sometimes a child just needs a little break and he can face his troubles better next time. Also, I can’t discount the effect that Richard’s absence is having on the little hearts in our family, and I think that extra love is needed.

Color

1008031511aThis was a quick phone shot on our way home from school one day last month. I love the reds, but those yellow aspens up high on the mountains are spectacular.

I get to see this view of the mountain every day as I drive home. When we drove to the house for the first time, the realtor mentioned that it felt like we were driving right into the mountain. It still holds my wonder each time I approach it. Right now it’s blanketed in some white. It’s always beautiful.

Tonight the street lights are reflecting off the black pavement after a day of slushy rain. The sunset was blue and deep gray. I spend a lot of time marveling over sunsets, leaves, and snow, don’t I?

Some of the best women I know

IMG_20131114_223906I went to lunch this week with my mom, sisters, and a sister-in-law (not pictured). They are smart, spiritual, tender, and industrious. I can guarantee that each of them is working on one or more of the following things today: Graphic design, music, sewing, quilting, refinishing, remodeling, building furniture, nurturing children, photography, rescuing someone, or party planning… They inspire me.