Last night, I awoke and couldn’t get back to sleep. I started thinking of the difficult things and the easy things I do. Included in my “difficult” list were big things (personal) and little things like having to leave the house. Ha! The easy things were kind of brainless, and included things such as looking at the news on my phone. Next, I thought about the really rewarding experiences I have had recently. Only one thing on the “rewarding” list was “easy.” Everything else that provided a rewarding experience was “difficult” for me, meaning it required courage, energy, work, or uncertainty. I visualized a Venn diagram of Difficult things vs Rewarding things and it had almost complete overlap, or correlation.
I need to learn not to fight against growth so much. The discomfort of ignorance and traveling to night classes is turned to awe at my fellows who have paid the price to learn things and for my God who created it all in the first place. The discomfort of reaching out to someone is overshadowed by the increase in my own spirit as I do it, regardless how the person reacts. Dealing with infirmity brings perspective and clarity that would otherwise be absent. God simply cannot be indebted to us. He is abundance and grace and generosity, even and especially in our difficulties.