I have taken a few years off from writing my stories. Now that the kids are in school all day, I am writing again.
I have finished 85 essays, and have 42 in progress. I finally realized what I am trying to accomplish, and wrote a preface. I am no longer directing it towards a large audience, as I hoped, and I am mostly OK with that.
I took a walk by myself in a building last year which handles a lot of publishing. I know this is where I want to be someday. Not yet, but with each day I write, I am working toward this goal.